Wednesday, March 19, 2008
some would say I'm getting my Jesus on!
Whew, a lot of thoughts and ideas toward a blog entry, and I can’t say then all by sequential time. But some I will.
It’s a challenging time, not enough spare energy to express too much here. Already been self-expressing with thinking over and journaling in notebooks and audiotapes. Tapes are nice because I can listen back and see how much I sound like someone who knows what they’re talking about. There are tangents I could go on, which would come back to a track I feel, like boomerangs maybe or moons around a planet. But the sun is the soul, and that’s the goal. To feel attracted to the soul. The source, your source. (1)
One way to tune into the source is to think about your version of things, how great it would be. If you get stuck on any judgments of someone else’s world out there then your not in your version of things. For example, if you react against what someone says, you’re just showing to yourself how much their version of the world is or isn’t your own. Or if you don’t like the way people handle something, like money, or authority, that’s fine. Just remember it’s not the thing that’s rotten. Money for example is not the root of all evil. Whoever said that meant, money is the root of all evil “for me”. It can be quite comical to make pushy universal absolutist statements become subjective again, it turns that energy around back at them so fast it can make your head spin. Hmm, maybe they mean but can’t bring themselves to say, money is the root of all my evil. Whatever it is, money is clearly a problem for them. Is it a problem for you? Well, how could would should money work, in your version of things? Then expect that it can work that way for you, and welcome any signs of this happening. Don’t spend what you don’t have, of course. At least not beyond the fixed interest rate you can expect to have.
You’ve got to realize, that a lot of this world isn’t your own. Most of it. A few people are bold, foolish, or desperate enough to make big changes, but mostly this is a very patchwork reality of little patches. You might be surprised which patches are most closely aligned with the good and bad sides of you – they’re probably the ones that you respond most inspiredly and furiously to, respectively, and you can choose to build on one and disconnect from the other (not my version).
It’s a big virtual reality game here, though since your body lives in the game, along with your friends and family, it’s very real and important. You definitely chose it, you signed up to play and it’s your screen, it’s your interface, so don’t smash the monitor. It’s not over til it’s over, though it can be very provoking.
Provoking would just mean that you are imagining one possible threatening outcome, so guard against and look for different possible outcomes. The rules can change quickly when you realize they’re in your too. There are many complex inputs to the system, in addition to the obvious enviable controls out there of who has the money and power. To get to your version of things, you’ve got to feel your own internal opinions, your attention, and your love. The right ones will help you find your soul, which will increasingly approach you like some loving living light, a great friendly being watching over you, like a sun or god of new or mythic stature.
You can’t get stuck on the images out there, especially now as life gets more challenging. And you know it is, life getting challenging, with global conflicts, global pollution, global economic problems, global resource scarcities, global disease, and so on. It’s almost like the bad word is global. And in a way it is, since global means planetary, and Earth is where we live. Our bodies are from Earth, our stuff can’t depart, at least not while we’re valuing this physical lifetimes. Global means the set is filled, the consequences are realized, the sustainability is demonstrated. Obviously a lot of human systems today don’t work. (2)
I’d like to say didn’t, but mostly it’s still don’t. I had a vision, that it was the so-called common people who were in great numbers looking out for a brighter future, for hope and humanity. What were the leaders, people in positions of power and authority doing? Mostly hiding in fear of making wrong choices at a scary time, hoping the problems would go away by ignoring them or shooing them or outright falsifying to deny them. It's not hard to see that behaviour has led to the globalization of problems. Nowhere left to run, time to face up, very challenging for everyone.
It's a challenging time for everyone, for a reason. But I don't know all the reasons, people will be where they are. Focus on you, and giving your best to everyone you are drawn to meet. Right down to the anonymous well wishes, or prayers, or good energy. Whatever your version is called.
The vision was a vivid, charming, and chilling little movie in my mind as I was going to bed one night. An outstanding hypnogogic experience some researchers might say, a communication from heaven some Christians others might. They’d get their Jesus in there somewhere, too. Which is not a criticism, unless they pick on me first, which they sometimes do in my head, in my past, and in my world. But others are quite cool, like what Eric Leiser did with his hypnagogic divine visions, ie. made an astonishing semi-amatuer film with his brother, called Imagination. You might want to check it out, if it fits in your version of things.
I started out a Christian who liked to think about creatures from other planets, then I became a mystic Christian who studied in various esoteric churches including Spiritualism and Swedenborgianism (note the latter denies connection with the former). I admired the more intellectual mystics like Hildegard von Bingen, Emanuel Swedenborg, Robert Monroe, Kurt Leland, and in some ways became like them. It was my version of things, it still is, and evolving. Which is one way of saying that parts of this blog entry are from some mental friend or friends that I work with, and that’s the way I like to put it. My mental friends. An expression I got from some new wave songs in the 1980’s, I think it was going around at that time.
In my part of the world, anyway. :)
PS- oh there had to be a postscript, surely. well, it looks like up to marker (1) i was letting my ego run down, thru (2) i was channeling a view from the soul, and after (2) i was trying to speak as me again, which got some personal history and processing in that not everyone will relate to. Interesting how this stuff works. I'm learning what it means to say that i have tended to live on the mental plane, which is where the gods live and the souls if you can become more egalitarian.
It’s a challenging time, not enough spare energy to express too much here. Already been self-expressing with thinking over and journaling in notebooks and audiotapes. Tapes are nice because I can listen back and see how much I sound like someone who knows what they’re talking about. There are tangents I could go on, which would come back to a track I feel, like boomerangs maybe or moons around a planet. But the sun is the soul, and that’s the goal. To feel attracted to the soul. The source, your source. (1)
One way to tune into the source is to think about your version of things, how great it would be. If you get stuck on any judgments of someone else’s world out there then your not in your version of things. For example, if you react against what someone says, you’re just showing to yourself how much their version of the world is or isn’t your own. Or if you don’t like the way people handle something, like money, or authority, that’s fine. Just remember it’s not the thing that’s rotten. Money for example is not the root of all evil. Whoever said that meant, money is the root of all evil “for me”. It can be quite comical to make pushy universal absolutist statements become subjective again, it turns that energy around back at them so fast it can make your head spin. Hmm, maybe they mean but can’t bring themselves to say, money is the root of all my evil. Whatever it is, money is clearly a problem for them. Is it a problem for you? Well, how could would should money work, in your version of things? Then expect that it can work that way for you, and welcome any signs of this happening. Don’t spend what you don’t have, of course. At least not beyond the fixed interest rate you can expect to have.
You’ve got to realize, that a lot of this world isn’t your own. Most of it. A few people are bold, foolish, or desperate enough to make big changes, but mostly this is a very patchwork reality of little patches. You might be surprised which patches are most closely aligned with the good and bad sides of you – they’re probably the ones that you respond most inspiredly and furiously to, respectively, and you can choose to build on one and disconnect from the other (not my version).
It’s a big virtual reality game here, though since your body lives in the game, along with your friends and family, it’s very real and important. You definitely chose it, you signed up to play and it’s your screen, it’s your interface, so don’t smash the monitor. It’s not over til it’s over, though it can be very provoking.
Provoking would just mean that you are imagining one possible threatening outcome, so guard against and look for different possible outcomes. The rules can change quickly when you realize they’re in your too. There are many complex inputs to the system, in addition to the obvious enviable controls out there of who has the money and power. To get to your version of things, you’ve got to feel your own internal opinions, your attention, and your love. The right ones will help you find your soul, which will increasingly approach you like some loving living light, a great friendly being watching over you, like a sun or god of new or mythic stature.
You can’t get stuck on the images out there, especially now as life gets more challenging. And you know it is, life getting challenging, with global conflicts, global pollution, global economic problems, global resource scarcities, global disease, and so on. It’s almost like the bad word is global. And in a way it is, since global means planetary, and Earth is where we live. Our bodies are from Earth, our stuff can’t depart, at least not while we’re valuing this physical lifetimes. Global means the set is filled, the consequences are realized, the sustainability is demonstrated. Obviously a lot of human systems today don’t work. (2)
I’d like to say didn’t, but mostly it’s still don’t. I had a vision, that it was the so-called common people who were in great numbers looking out for a brighter future, for hope and humanity. What were the leaders, people in positions of power and authority doing? Mostly hiding in fear of making wrong choices at a scary time, hoping the problems would go away by ignoring them or shooing them or outright falsifying to deny them. It's not hard to see that behaviour has led to the globalization of problems. Nowhere left to run, time to face up, very challenging for everyone.
It's a challenging time for everyone, for a reason. But I don't know all the reasons, people will be where they are. Focus on you, and giving your best to everyone you are drawn to meet. Right down to the anonymous well wishes, or prayers, or good energy. Whatever your version is called.
The vision was a vivid, charming, and chilling little movie in my mind as I was going to bed one night. An outstanding hypnogogic experience some researchers might say, a communication from heaven some Christians others might. They’d get their Jesus in there somewhere, too. Which is not a criticism, unless they pick on me first, which they sometimes do in my head, in my past, and in my world. But others are quite cool, like what Eric Leiser did with his hypnagogic divine visions, ie. made an astonishing semi-amatuer film with his brother, called Imagination. You might want to check it out, if it fits in your version of things.
I started out a Christian who liked to think about creatures from other planets, then I became a mystic Christian who studied in various esoteric churches including Spiritualism and Swedenborgianism (note the latter denies connection with the former). I admired the more intellectual mystics like Hildegard von Bingen, Emanuel Swedenborg, Robert Monroe, Kurt Leland, and in some ways became like them. It was my version of things, it still is, and evolving. Which is one way of saying that parts of this blog entry are from some mental friend or friends that I work with, and that’s the way I like to put it. My mental friends. An expression I got from some new wave songs in the 1980’s, I think it was going around at that time.
In my part of the world, anyway. :)
PS- oh there had to be a postscript, surely. well, it looks like up to marker (1) i was letting my ego run down, thru (2) i was channeling a view from the soul, and after (2) i was trying to speak as me again, which got some personal history and processing in that not everyone will relate to. Interesting how this stuff works. I'm learning what it means to say that i have tended to live on the mental plane, which is where the gods live and the souls if you can become more egalitarian.
